you can never lose a thing if it belongs to you

"So here's to life and all the joys it brings.
Here's to life to dreamers and their dreams." - Phyllis Molinary

After a week off I am starting to feel something more than fatigue.

I opened my eyes and saw the old street in mud and flooded in rainy weather. People rushing, wind licking backs, humidity under skin, uncovered dirt.
However, the colours have definitively changed. Now I am discovering lots of tinges and tones of dullness...

The holiday as usually is passing extremely fast... Wonderful time, easy, unreserved thoughts, daydreams. Only getting phones to response with a smile to some unpleasant, jealous remarks like 'Oh, you shouldn't bother, anyway, you're having your holiday! So, my sweetheart, use it best until you can!'

I love days free, lazy, loosy and mine. As I cannot sleep long (obvious duties ie. a dog), I enjoy spending much time with myself. Usually I hate moments when my real "me" is loud, unhindered. I feel guilty. Not here, not now. I am looking for solutions, I have realized the need of change. Only a week has passed and I am decided to carry out another revolution in my life. I am to grab the steer again! So that I can direct this rotten tub towards some new goals...

Wish me luck!

"Cause you can never lose a thing,
if it belongs to you." - Abbey Lincoln

NY resolutions

As most of my collegues could discover, we woke up in the new year, older, hung over and rather doubtful about our future. However, everyone has been prescribed by some spirits (maybe exactly!) a very unique medicine for all the problems. We made a list of so called "resolutions", sticked them to the fridge and now our everyday life is verifying them, presented us in a rather poor condition about keeping the word.
Reassuming:
- no one has kicked any habit
- no one studies more
- no one eats less
- no one takes regular training
- one becomes alcoholic
- no one works less
- everyone complains
- some stop thinking
- everyone has problems with sleeping
- one takes too many sleeping pills
- one becomes aware of violence and tries to keep a house safe
- one starts to go out to provoke situations
- one tells lies more often
- my dog gets bigger, stronger but more clever
- I don't write my blog regularly
- I write nothing regularly (diary, blog, articles, poems)
- no one takes care of NY resolutions
- and we are not happy with ourselves again